I have preached the definition of insanity to my youngest son for years with regards to baseball. It has now just become another word in our training. Insanity = doing the same thing, the same way over and over yet expecting different results. That is our definition and when I say it, he knows exactly what I mean.
We were on our way home from practice the other night and we were talking about it (insanity) again when his sister chimed in and said, “why don’t you just change something, that’s what I do.” She was a gymnast for 9 years and was good at adjusting when something wasn’t working. My son then responded by words that haunt me even today when my spiritual battle is fierce. He responded with these words, “I don’t know, I just don’t think about it.” I then told him that is the problem. He is not thinking. He is just doing and change does not happen if you are not thinking about what needs to happen. Little did I know that those words would come back to me this morning as I fight a spiritual battle of my own.
I responded to someone in a way that I should not have responded. It was a way that I did not want to respond either. But I wasn’t thinking. I was tired from a long day and “it” just happened. I was not engaged in the spiritual battle that was being waged around me and so I wasn’t ready to fight. I have realized that I have to be engaged in the war all the time. I cannot let a moment go by as if I am in a time of peace. The battle is waging and I will suffer pain, heartache and much more if I am just walking around like a civilian in a war zone.
I have to do better. I have to put on the whole armour daily but I can’t stop there. I must then realize that I have it on for a reason. I am at war!!!!